What I will be sharing with you the next few blogs is very personal, but I feel that it can be of help because I know I am not the only one that has gone through things like this and I want to be an encouragement.
I get very nervous when hurricane season comes because of the two hurricane that we had one right after another just a few years ago. I do NOT like hurricane season. But just recently, I found my life in hurricane season and it felt like a category 5. My daughter and son sat me down one night and started telling me of things that had happened to them when they were smaller, things that I had no idea about. They relayed to me that my father had done terrible, wicked things to them when they were younger. At first it seemed as if I were in a dream, but it wasn't a dream, it was true. As everything unfolded and time went on, my father was arrested and put in jail. Shortly after being put in jail, he passed away. At that time, I lost not only my father, but also my whole family because my mother, brother, his family, my aunt and uncles all stopped talking to me.
I felt as if I was standing outside during a hurricane and all the force of the wind and rain was blowing against me. I felt as if I just wanted to surrender and let the wind and rain take me anywhere but here. My heart broke because of what my children had endured when they were younger and were still enduring, and because I had lost the rest of my family. I've endured heart-ache before, but I had my family to help me through it and show support. This time I had no one to turn to, no one but God and He was enough! God knew my heart, He knew exactly what I was feeling. Many times when I prayed I did not even say anything, I could not, my heart was breaking too much. But I did not have to say anything, God knew exactly how I felt and what I needed.
I also had to remember that my children were watching me. I wanted to set the right example for them as to how they should respond when bad things happen to them, as it did. I wanted them to learn to turn to God and rely on His strength and comfort. I spent much time in prayer for them and encouraged them to spend much time in prayer talking to God.
Have you been through something similar in your life? Have you given up or have you turned it over to God knowing that He works everything to good? We must remember that our children learn how to respond to the problems of life by how we respond. Let's determine to set the right example for our children and when the hurricanes of life come our way, let's show our children that God is our refuge and strength in the time of trouble. Let's show them that God is our fortress and no one can get to us without going through God. It is not an easy task, but it must be done for the sake of our children and ourselves.
If you've been through a hurricane in your life, you just can't seem to get through it and you need someone to talk to, please do not hesitate to contact me. My email address is sandra.davis123@yahoo.com and my phone number is (772) 359-9688. I care and I want to help!
